Don’t really feel like drawing anymore right now…
Venting. Jealous of colors omega & pidge. Bills at home. Being forced to pay rent anyway. Contest. Work. Banned. Blocked. Literally having the shittiest weekend ever. I’ve lost all motivation to draw from everything. Fuck life. I don’t want to cry anymore…
Hey. You think we don’t see these things? You think I don’t see these things?
This is a long post. please consider the “J” shortcut if you don’t want to read it.
Tumblr’s block function is utterly useless to be honest. Such a shame really, since I can still access your blog even though I’m 100% certain you blocked me a while back lmao.
You want attention? You got it, bud.
Every Saturday, Shiny. Every damn Saturday you decide to get antsy and complain. Every damn Saturday you decide to try to gather pity from your followers and friends for this. Every damn Saturday you decide that this is the end of the fucking world.
And for what?
Because we wanted to include you in the Undergames before, and you couldnt make it. So you decide that instead of taking the better road and saying “oh this is unfortunate.” and moving on, you instead decide to lash out at us over it?
Remember this post?
This was after a couple weeks of you not being able to make the games. That is literally no fault of ours.
News flash btw, I couldn’t make them either, really. I had to pop in chat every now and again while working at my old job to be able to even remotely participate. And even then it was barely anything.
It’s not our fault you couldn’t make it. It’s not our fault your workplace sucks. It’s not our fault you can’t find a better job.
Remember this ask?
Not our fault. The hosts have a free day on Saturdays. You and I both were not initially supposed to be admins of this blog. They are under no obligation to cater to you.
Colors even offered a possible Friday game JUST FOR YOU. And what did you do? You mistreated the everliving shit out of the group yet again because heaven forbid Colors and Omega get an education.
This isn’t on us. This is entirely on you.
The only channel you are blocked on is my personal, for obvious reasons you seem to constantly forget.
– harassing me personally when it didn’t concern me
– harassing a 13-year-old girl in general
– msitreating your friends
– trying to bully your way into getting what you want
And after that? When it got more personal?
– disregarding the obvious ban on my personal picarto channel
– continuing to abuse your friends for pity
– continuing this harassment of me, colors and omega
And yes, shiny. I saw you trying to vent in Val’s discord about us a couple times. I saw you causing your friends senseless worry over your pathetic inability to move on from this. I also saw your indirect mention of this bullshit in the UFFG discord.
Shit happens.
People make mistakes.
It’s been 3 months, maybe more.
Get over it. Stop letting this dictate how you decide to live your life.
You were always still welcome to participate in the games. You really were.
We tried to let you be involved with us. We really did. Or did you forget that we agreed to this?
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You even apologized for being a massive shithead to everyone. What happened to that?
Remember back when I really did care about you as a friend? When I was legitimately concerned over your safety?
That wasn’t me being two-faced. I did genuinely care. I’ve been watching from afar since this post happened, kinda vaguely hoping you’d improve yourself.
Looks like you never did. It’s disappointing to be honest. All you seem to do is want to mope about and hate yourself for anything you can get your hands on.
And frankly it’s disgusting. You need to stop. Leave us alone. Stop dragging yourself down just because you THINK you can’t participate in a blog that was, well…
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