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My thoughts on FlowerFell and Everything (Audio, 23 minutes long)
The hardest lesson in life is accepting the mistakes you’ve made. Especially when it’s now since devolved into little bitty pieces and now, it feels like it’s too late for it to ever be well again.
But it’s not, is it? You know it. You just said it.
It’s not too late. It’s not too late to say sorry. It’s never too late to be kind.
You know.. it’s not just you who made this mistake. I.. I wanted to tell everyone to chill too. I wanted to say take a deep breath, and it’ll be ok. This is normal. It’s happened many times with other creators. The other side of being popular, I know how this cycle works. And I could how it could end. Would end.
But what do you care, or anyone? I’m just your random internet stranger. What I said wouldn’t matter at all. I didn’t want to be grouped in with the people who were attacking sanei either. i thought, I didn’t matter. My words would never matter. Those were my excuses to myself.
So I did nothing.
I think… that a lot of people feel like this too. Like you, like me. In watching… all this go down, and never say those words, that maybe… you just needed to chill, and realize that the treasure you created is yours. It’s only yours, there’s no other ‘sanei’ out there who can create the things that sanei can, does. I think a lot of us were afraid. Afraid to speak up, afraid of being rebuked. We were just insignificant fans, and we didn’t matter. Writing this out for real… I realize how stupid we are.
I’m sorry.
I loved flowerfell, I still do. It was one of my earliest fanart pieces for the UT fandom. And one of the very first reasons for me to create this blog, this blog called yoyo fucking happiness. It was absolutely the reason that I got into the UT fandom in the first place. I was so immensely happy when I got a comment from the creator themself. I thought, my art made a little difference in this world. Someone is happy because of something I made, I couldn’t stop smiling. I couldn’t stop being happy. I made another for their birthday, day of, because I had joined the fandom so late I didn’t know beforehand. It was my way of thanking them for… making me so happy. Even though I’ve been kind of afraid of drawing anymore since… well, everything went to pieces. I love, love the beautiful melancholy that I got from flowerfell. The undying strength to forge onwards when the world is against you. To cling so desperately to the ideal of being kind. This struck my heart very close to home.
Strength, I believe, is the will to get up and move on when all you’ve done is fall down.
But I’m getting a bit off track. Sorry this turned into a wall of text. All I really wanted to say is:
Thanks for speaking up, and to us, paintscroll. From one internet stranger to another, know that I respect and admire you. Knowing that we aren’t really acquainted in any meaningful way, I hope that from the bottom of my heart, you will be well, too.
Thank you. For being a kind person. Because sometimes I like to think, that kindness is indeed enough.
This is a good post.
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